Numb

7/29/2023

Proud is what I should be feeling,

I fought my way out,

A better future is what I now have,

Why am I numb and angry?

Today was the dawn of a new day,

It doesn’t feel like new beginnings,

I’m in the same old hole I always am,

Darkness stealing what little light there is.

The only thing I feel is angry,

It’s warming my face,

It’s burning me to my core,

Where is this coming from?

Where is my happiness?

Where is my peace?

Why didn’t the deep breath come?

There isn’t any relief.

My heart is racing,

My mind an anxious mess,

I feel it in my chest,

The tightness that doesn’t let go.

I want to say, “I hope,”

But that’s not what I feel,

There’s only emptiness,

I’m dead inside.